Phew! Haven't been here in a while. So today, I'm gonna update all that I can, provided blogger doesn't give me any problem.

Firstly, I've been really busy with work. The last month of the year not only brings along various activities and events planned (which requires OT and preparation), it also means budget planning, contract renewals, accruals, year end closign and all these what nots.

And then, there was the farewell for our baby - our beloved African Twin. It was sad letting him go. He was always there with us, through good times and bad times. So here's hubby kissing his bike goodbye...

We also welcomed our new baby, he FJR 1300 which I fondly refer to as the fatty-bom-bom. No pic at the moment. But watch out for it... it'll be coming to a space on this site sooner than you think.. I hope!

After that were the various trips around and across Singapore. This is for the 'running-in period'. We went to East Coast, twice to Singapore Expo (which is way at the other end from our Woodlands home). Then there was the supper trip to Senai and the whole day trip to Malacca, which is back to back mind you!

Malacca Trip

Just last weekend, we went to KL for a work cum retreat session with our union group. It was fun, and especially so since hubby and I were there together! Sometimes it's fun to go on a tour as eveything is arranged for you. You don't have to worry about getting a room, looking for food...

Throughout this whole time, I hadn't been feeling very well. Since my stomach flu at the end of Nov, I never fully recovered. My body was aching and there were constant bouts of nausea. Had a feeling that something's happening to me. Took the self test last Friday and visited the GP early today. It's positive! I am expecting our first baby!

So that's it for today.Wanted to upload more photos.. but I'm giving up now. Bloggers giving me problem again. Good nights people.. I'll try to update again soon okie! Good night!

Last Friday, my Muslim colleagues and I put together a small feast for our non-Muslim colleagues. It was great fun and gave them an idea of the celebration (okay, i mean the food) we have for Hari Raya. This is actually yhe second time we're having this.

Needless to say, all of us stufeed ourselves silly with the lontong, sambal goreng, ayam panggang and rendang from Abg Suhaimi, and Nasi Minyak and stuffs from Zul. Me? I just brought over some kuih and beverages. Thanks guys for making this happen! 

Haven't been feeling well the last few days. Something wrong with my stomach. Was also unlucky enough to catch the cold at the same time. Needless to say, the weekend flew past without me getting any housework done. Sigh**

I think its time I get serious about losing this weight. Lotsa well meaning friends and family has been telling me about how I've gotta lose weight before I will succeed in having a baby. Not that me and hubby are rushing lah, but my MIL has been obviously hinting to us about her wishes for her first grandchild. The time also seems right, its just if and when we are prepared for it.

I went to the clinic recently and the doctor told me about this condition called the POS or polycystic ovarian syndrome which she suspects is what I'm having. Its scary and too much for me to bear knowing that I am the cause of us not extending our future generations.

So I'm going to start being tough on myself and work to have this weight off whether I like it or not!

Its gonna be tough man.. I need all the support I can get. Wish me luck!

Today is a very special day. It's the birthday of someone very close to me. Someone who's always special, and will always be. And without whom I would not become who I am today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK!!

I love you love you love you!! I'm sorry life hasn't been easy for you. I will try my best to make the coming years a bed of roses for you okie mak sayang!

Alhamdulliah, everything went smoothly last week. It was heartbreaking to leave behind a house full of memories. Everywhere I turn, I still see Dad. Even when the house was empty of our belongings. God bless his soul.

Raya this year has been better then expected. I had foreseen this Raya to be sombre and relatively quiet. But thanks to all my relatives and friends who has been visiting and in turn invited us to their home, I had not time to feel sorry for myself. Every weekends, we had visitors over. and so busy were we that we did not even take photos of the hundreds of guest that came.

Maybe its a sign to tell me to move on. I have to! For mom's sake, for hubby's sake, and especially for mine.

Hari Raya Entry

Didn't realize that I haven't blog in a while. That just shows how busy we have been with preparations for Hari Raya.

This year, even though sepnt a lot of time preparing for Raya, it was celebrated moderately. It's like I looked forward so much for the day to come, only to find that its just like any other day.

I managed to collect my tailored kebaya on Raya eve. Husband recycled his last year's baju. No, we didnt wear matching colours this year. I was clad in orange (his choice) while he was in black. As usual, we went home to mom's place, followed by our respective grannies and a few other aunts' houses. And as usual, there were tears when it came to the part where I asked for forgiveness. Furthermore with the memories of what happened last year, naturally I had already expected the tears.

We ended the day with a few of my relatives coming to my house. By the time they left, it was already 2am. It has been a long long day...

This Saturday will be another long day since we've already invited my colleagues and relatives over. I'm so thankful that mom will be around to help cos I will definitely be overwhelmed with so many guests.

Just received news though that mom got to move out from the flat by the 3rd. What a headache to move during Raya. It's heart-breaking to let go of a house so full of memories. But it's just too much for my mum to handle. Its inevitable that we have to let it go one day. I just didn't expect it to go through so soon. And can you imagine how hard it will be to fit in everything from our jumbo flat to a two or three room flat that they'll be getting? A rented one at that.

Shucks! I'm just so stressed right now. Life seems to suck at this moment. Hopefully my next entry will bring better news.

"Ok friends, lets meet 6.30 SHARP at let's eat lot one..."

That's the message I got out of the blue today from a secondary school friend.

Who? What? When?

Ya, that was my first reaction too.

Turns out that we're meeting for Iftar (break fast) today. Luckily I hadn't had anything planned. So yeap, I'm definitely going. Some of the rest can't make it though.

Oh shucks! And I didn't even have my camera with me! Oh boy... this menas there'll be no photos this time round. :(

Raya's coming!

This Raya is going to be so different. Somehow, I kept thinking of the Raya before last year. In 2004, Dad was sick. But not as sick as the last year. So were still able to go out and celebrate. At that time, I was still staying with mom and dad. It was the most fulfilling Raya ever. There were also many visitors. Me, mom and sis were so enthusiastic about the preparations.

Then last year, we celebrated Raya at Tan Tock Seng. We brought in a radio for dad into his room so that he could hear the takbir raya. I didn't know if he understood what was going on then. His diabetic condition was so bad then, that he seems so far away at times. all we could do was to hold his hand.

I remember that all of us came to the hospital on the first day of Raya. It was my first Raya in my bew home, but I felt like I was barely there. Everything happened like a dream. My memories of that Raya was just a blur.

It was still Raya when Dad passed away. Although we were shocked, it was somewhat a relief too for he is no longer in pain. He used to cringe a lot when he was in ICU. Like it was too much pain to bear.

No wonder mom seems to dread this coming Raya. Actually I am too. But I'm trying my damndest not to. It's not fair to hubby, and I want Mom to have a good time.

It also felt a lot like my first Raya. In my pre-occupied state last year, a lot of things were done in a minimalist way. I hope I can make up for it this Raya.

Dad, you're in my prayers everyday. I miss u.

Today my mind is not at ease. Keep thinking about her and the life-changing decision which she has just made. I understand her rationale and know that it really is for the 'greater good'. But.... how do you know when enough is enough? That the decision you made is really for the best?

I worry for them. What will the future have for them?

Be strong gal! There's really nothing else to do but to be strong and have faith in HIM. God bless.

It seems like ages since I was here! Seems like my blog turut berpuasa in this holy month of Ramadan... kekeke!

Anyway, I've been occupied lah. Last Thursday, we went to meet up with hubby's secondary school mates. It was so much fun! It made me think of my own secondary school mates and how we've drifted apart over the years. Anyway, for pics, click HERE okie!

dun ask me what i did on Friday cos... GASP!! I can't remember. Talk about short term memory huh!

Sat, met up with Jillian and Hubby. Broke my fast at Newton hawker centre witht he usual spread of ikan pari bakar, sotong sambal, omelette with shrimp and tom yam! Hmmm.... so sedap! After that, we brought them to Geylang to get my 'Blinky' lights! It was super crowded! We walked and walked... and hubby even participated in this carpet auction! But luck was not with I as others managed to outbid us.

I was ready to go home after Geylang but hubby and Lester has other plans. Off we went to Parklane for billiard. While they play, Jillian and I were busy chatting at the side. The game ended only at 1.30am! And I was super duper tired and yawning all the way! But it was a good day and we enjoyed ourselves very much.

Sunday, as usual was reserved for housework. Nothing much there.

Yesterday though, we went back to Geylang with mom and bro. Berbuka puasa at Hawa Rest at Onan Road and had my hor fun and hubby's chicken rice. Walked around after that and bought my senduks (ladle) for Raya. We bought 10! LOL!! So funny!

So today, its back at work. So sorry that this entry is super dry without the usual sprinkle of photos okie! Didn't bring my camera and hard drive to work lah. Btw, what's up with me and the use of the word 'super'... god knows why! HAHA!!

Anyway.. Raya is coming!! Bestlar! Nie next week nak pegi pasar, buat kuih, tukar langsir.. and etc. So best!! Excuse me while I go check my list.. *byebye!

My baby number 1 turns 5 today!

Happy birthday sayang. You will always hold a special place in my heart.

Short entry

I just wanna say.....

Yeah!! Hady won!! He is the new Singapore idol!! Woo hoo!!

Ok. That's it. Good night. Heehee!!

Portuguese Egg Tarts

Psst....

I know I'm fasting and shouldn't be thinking of food. But I dunno why, I've got a sudden craving for Portugese Egg Tarts.

It's very bad. And I can't stop thinking about it.

Anyone knows where I can get good Portuguese Egg Tarts? Preferably in City Hall or Woodlands area?

Ramadan

To all Muslims out there;

Selamat Mengerjakan Ibadat Puasa!

Happy Ramadan!!

TGIF!!!

Thank God its Friday!!

Time seems to be dragging by today. and I just can't wait for hubby's arrival in front of my office at 6pm today.

I was on MC yesterday. I dunno what I ate wrong, but my tummy was hurting yesterday morning. It got better, but my back was also aching. Went to my regular clinic for medication and stuff. Then, I also went to this tailor's shop for my kebaya. This year, I will have my purple songket and orange kebaya. Too much colour if u ask me. But hubby kept on insisting on the orange untill I finally agreed. I still have my pink and cream material, but I think I'll save that till after Raya. Then I can get a good tailor at a reasonable price.

After that, I went around to buy some groceries. Decided to cook since I was the only one home. Made chicken rendang and this vege soup. Mom cameover with the kids to help me since I was fasting and sick.. kekeke!

After break fast, we went to Vista Point for desserts. Dunno why, I always get the urge for something cold and sweet. So had my chng tng, plus some toiletries and I was ready to go home.

Something is wrong with me. I dun want to be paranoid, bit I've been feeling very tired lately. My whole body seems to be aching, esp my back. At night, I will sleep soundly all the way till morning. Usually, I will wake up everytime hubby reaches home from work or opens the door to the bedroom. Nowadays, I just sleep through it all. Haiyz... I think I need a massage really badly.

so u see why I am so happy its Friday??!! Woo hoo!!

Something to blog about

Remember I promised to post the pressies I got for Jean & Jillian? Well this is it...

I hope they like it. It was a very belated present, and I'm so sorry it took so long!

And then on Thursday, 14 Sept 2006, we received the long awaited sms from a dear friend. Ayu have finally given birth to the sweetest baby girl. We visited her after work at SGH. Isn't this just the sweetest thing ever...?

On Friday, I got such a shock when mom told me that Raziq was admitted to KK Hospital. High fever and tonsils. I rushed over as soon as I heard. Luckily I was not home yet; was window-shopping in Orchard with Jean after dinner.

He was dischaarged on Sunday and is back to his cheeky self. Luckily we took precaution as Naqib's fever was also climbing that day. Haiyz.. it's so worrisome when kids get sick. I don't know how I'm gonna handle it when its my kids we're talking about.

I've started fasting today. Just realised that fasting month is coming very soon. I also didn't want to give my tummy a shock when the time comes, so this is sort of a warming up.

I love Ramadan. Since I was young, we never fail to look forward to this month in the Islamic calendar, followed by Syawal.

But then again, Dad passed away last Syawal. This Raya is going to be very different from the past. God bless his soul. I miss u daddy...

Random Thoughts of a Girl

Work, as usual, has been madness. Finally got a breather today after I managed to send out the GIRO list to my finance dept yesterday.

Met Jillian for lunch today. Gave her the long awaited birthday present. Haiyz.. it was long long overdue! Sorry gals. This does not mean I love you any less. I can't post a pic of the present yet though. I've still yet to meet Jean to pass hers. Ya, they both get the same present. So Jillian and I walked to Marina Square today. Had lunch at the foodcourt. Been eating a lot lately, so had YTH soup for lunch.

Oh yes! Jillian, my sis-in-law said that your hubby dearest is good looking. LOL! Tell him that for me ok. He will be smiling away for sure...

Its been a while since we had our group meeting. Work schedule does not allow us to meet as often as we like. With Jillian working retail hours and Sophian working shift, its hard to get a day when all of us are available.

So last weekend, we went to my aunt's house for the 2nd kenduri of the month. It was great catching up with people who have known u since u were a baby. It was also too easy to reminisce about my late dad. I could almost see him sitting on the sofa, smoking away while chatting with his siblings. I miss u dad...

Finally, I'd like to wish my dearest sister a Happy Happy Birthday! You are, and always be, a very important part of my life. May happiness be with you always.

Here's a pic of my nephews.

NAQIB

RAZIQ

I miss my two devils. I saw them last Saturday, but it was only for a short while. So now I'm missing them. Miss their sweet smells after their evening bath, their shrill shouts of delight and their infectious laughter.

God, how is it possible to love someone so dearly, it hurts? To miss them even only a day apart? To miss not only the good things, but also the tears, the tantrums? And they're not even mine.

I can only imagine the pain it will cause me when they make their move to Yishun later. Not being able to drop by on a whim, to rush and be there in 5-10 minutes in cases of emergency, to grab things from a shop shelf and to bring it to them as a surprise on the next hour.

Naqib and Raziq, from birth, you came into my life. Bringing me the sun with a flash of your smiles. I love you guys so much!

Seasons are changing..

Whoa.. finally, a time to blog.

Work has been madness these few days. Spent Monday to Wednesday packing some stuffs for the IMF thingy. Been OTing for the first two days of the week (including a short breather to Far East for a 30 minute shoe hunt with my colleagues after work).

Yesterday and today, was for catching up with my daily work. Nothing interesting there. It has also been raining very heavily these days. Somehow or other, instead of feeling down, it gives me this sense of calmness. Definitely just what I needed.

This weekend, grandma's having a kenduri at her house. And next weekend, another kenduri at my aunt's. The norm is for all my other aunties to bring a dish (some sort of pot luck) to contribute. I wonder if I'm expected to bring something, well since I'm married and everything.. but what should I bring. Buat malu jer if I bring something that is nt pleasant to the palate. I think, I have an idea. But let me dwell on it first. I'll let u guys know when the time comes okie??!!

Hokay.. by now, u should be able to see that what I write today are all useless chatter. Its just that I miss blogging but I dunno - my mind is just blank at the moment. So I shall stop now and continue another day. Have an early night everyone. Thank God its Friday tomorrow!!

Oh ya.. hi Ayu!! Dah nak beranak kau ni eh! I'm counting down with u! Lemme noe when it happens. Best lah!! Heehee....!!

New Skin!

A new skin! Yeah!! I'm so happy man!

I've tried countless of times, but this is my first time suceeding! Ha! How pathetic am I.. .!

But they say, u'll never suceed if you don't kep trying!

Well, this isn't perfect, but at least its a change. And I like!! Thanks to Trina for her help.

I miss you

To you,

We used to be very close. Practically every weekends were spent together. Living apart does not mean being apart. You were always in my heart.

But you have changed. And with this, you no longer value our relationship although you desperately claim otherwise. You no longer cared as you use to, and you think money will make up for everything. For the hurt, for lost time, for all the days I worried about you.

All those time u said you care, were those just lies? All the time we spent together, is it meant to be just history? Have you lost your way? Have you lost sight of home? Come back to what you once were. I miss you....

A quickie post

Me going to CK Tang for their private sale today. Hurray!! No lah.. not as if I'm going to shop till I drop. I just gotta get my MAC blusher. I'm in dire need of a replacement since the current one is very quickly depleting.

Other than that, I'm going to 'look' at shoes. I desperately want one, but I am gonna be considerate and maybe keep it for next time. Maybe. Heehee..!!

Hubby's starting on his new part time job today. Nope. It is not easy having your own home at all. The household bills just about kill us. (Not to mention the many many other things that come your way.. blender rosak lah, shampoo habis lah, and wat about the grocery??!!) The pressure we feel each month, its like having to squeeze every last bit of the juice from the fruit. It's been a while since hubby held on to two jobs. But he's decided to go for it while he is still young. Furthermore, he has yet to settle his 'continuing education" thingy. So might as well use the time to earn more money. I shall try to become a better wife by being extra sensitive to his needs from hence on. God knows how many this off days he'll get in a month for him to rest.

Looks like I am about to become a single wife. Not that I am complaining lah.. I understand the need. And I understand that he is doing this for us. Who'd have thought that it takes our marriage to bring about this maturity in us. I'm proud of you darl! And Me..!!

But its not like I'm squandering all our money away hokay! I really need the blusher for work and working shoes really is about to give way. So there! Although I admit, its really guilt that is making me so defensive. Hee hee! Ok ciao!!

Of Durians and Cupcakes

Last Friday, Jillian and I (together with our husbands of course) met up for an impromptu durian session. We met at Geylang Lor 13, sat at our favourite stall while the men went to pick durians. I'm not really crazy about durians. So I stopped after 3 pieces. Lester was also quite full after a buffet dinner with his ex-colleagues earlier. However, between the four of us, we managed to finish up 8 durians! Click HERE for pics.

If u noticed, we found quite a few 'strange' things. Like the seed shaped like a heart, and another seed which was split into two (i assure u that the seed was not split into 2 by any of us, it was like that when we opened the durian).

Saturday was a day for lazing around. Other than going to the library to collect my book, all I did was laze around. Nothing much there..

Sunday was an eventful day. First thing in the morning, we got up and visited Dad's grave with Mom and Mamat. Followed by lunch at Jurong Point. Had to rush home after that as dearie had to work at 3pm. Had this sudden urge to cook up a storm, so I left together with hubby to go to Vista Point to get the ingredients I needed. Quickly walked back home as I was very anxious to start.

Two hours later, I got my mutton soup, as well as my cupcakes ready. :)










I'm so proud of myself! After my cooking was done, I continued with my routine weekend housework plus laundry and ironing. All this work left me with a terrible backache which I'm still suffering from at this moment. But I'm still very happy with what I have accomplished over the weekend.

Oh yes.. I changed my tagboard to a new one. I think this looks better doesn't it?

So kind of my sis-in-law to offer me help with my layout. Maybe when we both have time, I will take her up on her offer. Heehee!! :)

My Tagboard is up!!

Finally! I got my tagboard!

I've been wanting a tag board for the longest time. I just think its more friendly that way as friends can leave me a note instead of having to leave me a comment. It's not perfect I know. But I'm just happy I got it up and running.

I've been trying to change my layout as well. But its so damn complicated! Aargh!!! I know you can get those free ones on blogskin lah, but I always have problems putting back everything I want. I will normally start enthusiastically but will end up getting more and more confused before finally giving up altogether. What a failure I am... haiyz! I know :(

I also managed to slot in my links and even changed photo for a good measure. Ha ha.. now I'm one happy gal. See how little it takes to make me happy? Friends always say that I get excited really easy although at times, I do choose to show this side of me to only a few priviledge ones. Some people who do not know me assume that I am stuck up, but really, I am just really shy. It takes me a while before I can warm up enough to someone. Just ask any of my frens. Or better still, ask my hubby dearest ;p!

Life has been prety mundane lately. I've been going home straight after work. Anyway, its not as though I have been going places lah.. except when hubby dearest or any one of my frens decide to date me. Furthermore, the 'moon' has been rather dark these days (*wink* fifi, only u know what this means!) Haha!!

Dunno what prompted this mid-day entry. Go got to go now! Till later!

National Day

Erm.. this is a little bit belated, but nevertheless, Happy National Day! Seeing how Singapore has developed over the years and the pride on the men's faces while they marched to the centre of the stadium. Watching the parade on tv yesterday, it almost moved me to tears.

The night before that, we also joined Idris and Aidah for their solemnization at a mosque in Bukit Panjang. So happy for them!


On another note, this weekend gathering has been cancelled. There goes my surprise for them. Looks like I really gotta surprise them at their workplace one of these days.

Coming Saturday however, I have a few things to do. My cousin has planned a cukur rambut for her baby and at the same time, we have also promised to attend Idirs and Aidah wedding at the Malay Village. Looks like it it will be a promising weekend after all!

For now however, we still have to slog at work for today and tomorrow. I'm counting down the hours!!

This weekend

I have a plan.

This weekend.

It involves cooking.

It also involves a surprise.

My best friends are coming over for a day of fun and laughter on Sunday.

And they are not aware of the surprise.

(of course they not aware lah, otherwise it won't be a surprise right... duh??!!) *shakes her head*

Weddings = Tears?

Sometime last year, one of my hubby's secondary school mate got married. She was a close friends of his and we've been out together a couple of times. We were really happy for her when we received the invitation for her wedding.

Everything went as planned. The day arrived and the wedding went on without a hitch. The couple looked great together. It brought me memories of my own wedding.

I remember we had just bought a camera sometime before. So dear hubby was busy snapping away. The parents were then invited on stage for a family photo. They all looked so sweet togehter. It was touching moment when the bride kissed her parents, and we can see the mother tearing. It moved us all. Everyone burst into a clap and was cheering away.

But lo and behold... what is this? I found one drop of tear on my cheeks. And another. And many many others... What's happening to me? I never cry at weddings... except for mine lah which is fully understood. But at another's? Not even my sister's did I cry. And it got worst, making my eyes all red and my nose all wet. I could see hubby sneaking glances at me while he was busy snapping.

Immediately I went to a corner to wipe my tears away.

And now, another friend of his is getting married. Again, the image of the solemnization ceremony is making me teary eyed. I haven't even been to the actual thing! For goodness sake! This is getting way out of hand. Am I gonna cry at every wedding I go to?

So what happened? Is it the memories of hugging arwah dad for the last time during my wedding? Or is it just the memories of my own wedding? Whatever it is, I must try to put this to a stop.

So lovely. This blessed union of souls. The lovely ties of matrimony. Wonderful aint it?

Well, Idris and Aidah - Selamat Pengantin Baru! Semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu!!

Kulai with the guys

We went riding with the team to Kulai last night.

Which includes great company and lots of laughter. We had fun. Hee!

Another Bad Day

Its another of those days.

Days that seemed to stretch endelessly in front of you.

Days whereby every part of your body aches, pleading for a good massage.

Days that makes you feel like doing nothing but laze around.

But horrors! You're in the office and its not even lunch time!!

God, please help me get through my day...

The Wonders of Marriage Life

I've been thinking a lot lately. About you and me. And about this marriage we share. How time flies... Before, I used to track every single month that passes by since the beginning of our relationship. From that fateful day in 1997. Who'd expect that my first Valentine date would be my Valentine forever and ever and ever....? Heehee..

Such wonders in a relationship... For example,

1. I have this thing about me that requires absolute silence and darkness when I sleep. However, I sleep just as well with hubby snoring beside me.
2. I hate picking up after others. but why is it that I 'almost' like to pick up after him?
3. We fit each other perfectly! How is it that he is just the right height for me to kiss and I fit just as nicely under his arms for a hug?
4. I see him every single day, but he still occupies my mind every other second of the day.
5. We live in the same house, same room. Yet, we still look forward to a date.
6. He is such a fussy eater! However, he's a willing food taster when it comes to testing my terribly cooked dishes.

Funny ain't it? Funny yet so wonderful. Wonderfully mine that is. What a silly entry.. kekeke!

Birthdays in July

I didn't realise that so many people i know have their birthday in July! Let's see....

There are my colleagues at work whose birthday we celebrated by the usual cake cutting. Rizal celebrates his birthday on the 19th, whilst Ramah celebrates hers on the 22nd.

Picture taken during our last company party in Nov 2005

Then, my mother-in-law also celebrated her birthday on the 21st. Happy birthday mak! Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki, Insya-allah.

Picture taken during Hari Raya - 2004

And then, there's this couple I know who practically celebrates their birthday together every year, Raymond (23rd) and Jean (25th). May you guys be happy together ...

Picture taken at Sentosa during our last chalet together

Last but not least, Happy Birthday to Erna who celebrated her birthday on the 7th. Sorry babe, I don't have any recent photos of you besides your wedding pics. Neverthelessly, congrats on the good news (hmm.. thought u could keep it a secret huh??!!), and may you be happy with you loved ones forever after.

And that's it!

The one about prawn noodles

Prawn noodles.

Lovingly cooked by me. Just for my beloved husband. Not that he asked for it. Its just that I felt like cooking something nice for him instead of the usual average fare.

I even missed my 9pm mandarin drama serial cos i was busy in the kitchen peeling prawns, knowing that he finds it takes too much trouble to eat those things.

And all that trouble for what? He didn't even bother to call me to tell me he'll be home late. Not that I'd be less upset of course! Its okay if you wanna go meet ur friends. But whenever the wife tells u to come back for 'dinner', you jolly well DO! You can go out after for all I care. I may even send you off at the door.

Men..! What is it about them that makes it so difficult to understand their woman?

Its all in the fridge now. Who knows what fate has got for you tomorrow. Haiyz...

What I have been doing

Saturday, 8th July 2006

1.15pm : Mom's place for lunch, played with my nephews

3.15pm : Hubby reached mom's place, karaoke

5.30pm : Went back home

7.00pm : Left home to meet friends for dinner at Riverside Point

10.30pm : Went to Boat Quay with friends

12.00mn : Haagen Dazs at Clarke Quay

Sunday, 9th July 2006

12.30am : Met colleague, walk around Clarke Quay

3.00am : Watched soccer match Germany vs Portugal

5.45am : Reached home, hubby went to sleep while I checked my emails

6.30am : Woke hubby up for work

7.30am : Sleep

4.30pm : Woke up, hubby back from work, lunch (dinner??)

6.00pm : Started on housework, vacuum, laundry

7.30pm : Watched Pirates of the Caribbean Channel 5 + ironing

9.30pm : Sleep

12.00am : Woke hubby up and shower

Monday, 10th July (aka today)

1.20am : Reached Clarke Quay and looked around for seat

1.50am : Watched soccer, Italy vs France

5.00am : Left for home

5.30am : Sleep

7.00am : Wake up for work

9.00am : At work (I was late!)

12.30pm : Lunch time

2.00pm : Counting down the hours to Zzzz....

Happy IVGLDSW Day!!!

Just wanna share with you gals about this email I received today.

Happy IVGLDSW Day!

Today is International Very Good Looking, Damn Smart Woman's Day, so please send this message to someone you think fits this description. Please do not send it back to me as I have already received it from a Very Good Looking, Damn Smart Woman! And remember this motto to live by: Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!" Have a wonderful day!
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To the Girls !!

Inside every older person is a younger person -- wondering what the hell happened.
-Cora Harvey Armstrong-

Inside me lives a skinny woman crying to get out. But I can usually shut the bitch up with cookies.
(Unknown)

The hardest years in life are those between ten and seventy. -Helen Hayes (at 73)-

I refuse to think of them as chin hairs. I think of them as stray eyebrows. -Janette Barber-

My second favorite household chore is ironing. My first one being -- hitting my head on the top bunk bed until I faint. -Erma Bombeck-

O ld age ain't no place for sissies. -Bette Davis-

Every time I close the door on reality, it comes in through the windows. -Jennifer Unlimited-

T hirty-five is when you finally get your head together and your body starts falling apart.
-Caryn Leschen-

If you can't be a good example -- then you'll just have to be a horrible warning. -Catherine-

I'm not going to vacuum 'til Sears makes one you can ride on. -Roseanne Barr-

Behind every successful man is a surprised woman -Maryon Pearson-
Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission. -Eleanor Roosevelt-

It's my birthday lah...

29th June 2006 .

I was born on the same date, exactly 25 years ago.

And today, I count my blessings.

My marriage to my hubby, the home we've built together, the partnership we have, the everlasting love, the pain and laughter that we share.

My family. Mak who has always been an integral part of my being. My sister and her kids, who brings me joy without having to try, brings me a smile when I'm in need of cheering. My little bro, who is a man now. My pride, my hope and guardian of the family.

And today also, I remember Dad. My first birthday without him. It seems only right that this birthday was celebrated without the ususal cake and presents.

I spent the day with husband. He brought me out to Sentosa and Night Safari. We became tourists for a day.

The next day, we visited dad's grave and offered him prayers. Went to mom's place after that and while I stayed home to look after the kids, it was mom's turn to visit dad.

Yesterday, I did my ironing. Mom also came over since there was o one home. I made Nasi Goreng. Had the funniest craving for chilli crab and made hubby go out to seach for one. Today, I did the rest of the housework. Swept, mopped, changed the sheets and did the laundry. Its finally all done. Leaving me some time to blog, to surf before retiring for the day.

Maybe I should stop now. All this thinking and reflecting is making me a very boring person. And to you all, enjoy the last few hours of the weekend, good night!

My Best Friend's Wedding

She has always been a great friend. Although we started out as classmates, our friendship rapidly grew. And last Saturday, she gave me the honour of being her 'sister' for her wedding.


We had our share of fun and laughed ourselves silly over the 'Hen Night' we surprised her with. But on her wedding day, I was close to tears. So happy to see her getting maaried to the man she loves, and who loves her just as much, if not more. I am so happy for you Jillian. May you both be blissful, happily ever after.

For more pics, click here

Birthday's in June

Over the years, the people I've known more and more people who celebrates their birthday in June.

Firstly, there's Ayu another blogger whom I've known for years. Her birthday falls on the 4th of June.Sorry girl, I don't seem to have any of your latest photos.

Then there's Jillian (one of my best friend from poly) and Alice (my colleague) who shares the same bday on the 13th.

Me, Jillian and Jean

Alice's bday party in the office

There's also Azlifah, my primary cum poly mate cum neighbour, who just gave birth to Little Alisha on the 15th of June. Congrats Azee! Again no photo, as I've yet to meet the baby in person. Looking forward to meeting her. Will definitely do so when the mother is back at home.

Besides my Mak Teh bday on the 18th (if I'm not wrong) and Pak Busu's on the 21st, there's another birthday that I am so looking forward to.

Mine.... ;-p

Looking forward to spending some quality time with my loved ones. Can't wait!

Heheh... *smiles sheepishly* Haven't been updatin for a while now. Didn't feel like it lah. Too many things on my mind. And too many things happening.

Sent my youngest brother to tekong last friday. He's now embarking on a new stage of his life. He's so grown up now! I still remember the chubby kid whom I used to detetst for grabbing all of our parent's attention. It's bad enough having to give in to a younger sister. But a younger brother as well... However, it wasn't as though we had no love among us lah. It's just that it was simply our nature to leave each other alone. We were young and each of us were busy with our own group of friends, with our own lives.

We've grown up now. A far cry from what we were. With age comes bonding, especially with dad's passing away. We shared tears and laughter, and gave each other strength.

Sending him that day somehow moved me. Seeing him take his NS oath, my emotions were that of worry and pride. Worried that he may find it hard in NS, and pride that my youngest brother is now a grown man who will defend his country in times of need.

Gateway to Heaven...

Was sitting around earlier when I remembered that some of you probably have not seen my bedroom door... :)

Eat With Your Family Day

It was 'Eat with Your Family Day' on Friday, 26th May 2006. My company so graciously let us off at 5pm, an hour earlier than normal, to let us go home and have dinner with our family.

So we did. since hubby was working, I asked mom to whip up anice dinner so that we all could eat together that day. Reached mom' s place ard 7pm (left office at abt 5.30 to complete some things) and was glad to see that everyone was there.

Ours is a small family, just mom, me, nadia and mamat. besides the 2 kids, nadia's hubby and dear of course. but even so, it is not always easy to get everyone together. I'm glad they came up with such initiatives to remind us of the importance of family. So hope u guys had a great 'Eat with your family day' too. If not, hey dun wait for it to come. Go and make it happen! After all, nothing in this world matters as much as family.

I'm Back!

I'm back... last night. Reached home safely at about 9.30pm. Alhamdulillah.

The trip with the family was great fun! Certainly a lesson for me when I bring my own kids for a holiday in the future. The whole troop was there for the KL/Genting trip. There were 9 of us. Me, Hubby, MIL, Mak, Nadia, Mamat, Nenek, Naqib and Raziq. Two nihgts at Genting and two nights at KL.

At Genting, we had fun. Went there in style on board Transtar's First Class coach. We felt as though we were on board the airplane as the bus came complete with tv (for movies, mtv and videogames), a massage chair, a meal and a steward. The 7-hr journey didn't feel as long as it should when u're being pampered so nicely.

We checked into First World hotel. Had expected to get additional beds for our two rooms, but alas, they've run out of beds. Had to make do with two super-single beds in two rooms. As u can imagine, it was a squeeze that night. The first night was spent wondering around and plannng for the next day. Went to the Snow World as well. Although bigger and more fun than snow city in Singapore, we felt it was colder in Snow City. After that, we had dinner at Marrybrown's and went to bed quite early.

We took the rides on the second day. At RM$49 per adult for indoor and outdoor games, we tried to make it worth it by taking as many rides as we could. Roller coasters, boat rides, kiddy rides... u name it, we had it. We also had time to take the kiddy rides that we sat on when I was 5 yr old. Took loads of photos... will download over the weekends.

The next day, we rented a van to take us down to KL. The weather seems promising and we reached just after 3pm. Checked in to the Agora Hotel at Bukit Bintang, KL's shopping district. Though the hotel wasn't fantastic, the location more than made up for it. We were practically surrounded by shopping malls! So what else can we do besides shop, shop, shop!

Among the places we went to were Sungei Wang Plaza, Bukit Bintang Plaza, Petaling Street, Masjid India, Berjaya Times Square and Lot 10. Thought of going to KLCC too for them to have a look But, not enough time and even wif we managed to, our legs couldn't take it. As it is, mom and nenek had to ask for time out for a couple of times.. hee! Sorry both!

I must tell u abt the materials/kain i bought for Hari Raya. I like it so much! I just hope I'd remember to send it to the tailor in time!

Overall, everyone had a good time. For more pictures on the trip, click here.

I dunno what came over me last night. For sure I've been feeling tired last few days and thoughts of Dad has been coming back to me. But I didn't know what made me post such an entry for all to see.. I feel a little bit exposed now.

Neway... we'll be off to Genting and KL tomorrow morning. And I;m feeling a bit panicky cos I've yet to pack a single thing! Haven't decided what to bring, what to wear, what luggage to lug... Haiyz, I'm in trouble for sure.

Hopefully this trip will rejuvenate me and bring back the cheeriness that once were. This trip will also be good for mom, Nadia, Mamat and the kids. They have not been anywhere for the longest time. This will also be my brother's last trip before his enlistment to the army.

I'm worried about Naqib. His habit of biting his fingernails is getting from bad to worse. At times, he bites until he draws blood.. and even so, he will start again when the blood stops. Mom says she read somewhere that children who bites their fingernails are stressed. Is he stressed?

Well, for sure if I were him, I would. Firstly his maternal grandfather passed away. Just weeks after, his paternal granny passed away. Its no wonder he wakes up crying at night telling Mak that he don;t want her to 'meninggal' or pass away as well. Then there's the thing abt his dad. We try to ease this for him by taking him out, buying him toys and etc. But although he enjoys himself, bites away he still does. All of us are very worried. So ok... here's calling all mommies out there.. any advice? Email me at: zarina_11@hotmail.com

dun think I'll be able to log on tonight. So I'll be back upon my return from Malaysia. Till then.. byez!

I Think of You

I dun understand why.. but I'm so tired this week. My previous injury on my left ankle is acting up and giving me problems every single night. My back hurts, most likely from trying to keep my limp from becoming too obvious. My neck feels stiff and my head aches...

I miss my dad. We weren't very close when he was alive. That's proably because he was so busy working while we were young, that we simply grew used to talking to my mum instead of him. I mean, yeah, there were holidays and all that. And of course I loved him, but ours just weren't talking types. But no matter how, there would always be this bond between a daughter and her father. And this bond would forever remain. Were there any regrets on my part? For sure, I regret all those times I walk past him without saying a word. The countless of times we chose to have separate meals although living under the same roof. All those times worry for him would creep inside me, and I'd pushed it aside...

It's funny how it takes his passing away to make the family closer. Nowadays, hardly a day goes by without me talking to mum although we stay in separate houses. Not seeing them for more than a week is too much for me to take. And everyone puts in effort to spend time with each other. Isn't it amazing? But it no longer feels the same. Without him.

My wedding day will forever stay in my mind. And its not just because I got married to the man I love. It was also the day I gave dad a hug. And another. The customary act of kissing your parent's hand before u leave for the groom's side was especially significant to me. I don't what made me hug him twice. I just felt so heavy leaving him especially. Nobody expected that to be the last time I hugged him ever... The things that came after that were so hectic. I didn't even hug him goodbye.

Thoughts of him keeps drifting to me these few days. It still feels unreal. I don't even dare to look over my many wedding albums. It's just too much.

How do you say goodbye to someone who's no longer there? How do you let go of someone so dear? How do I take each day knowing that I'll never see you again?

I think of you dad... always will.

Mummy... It's over...!!

Happy Mother's Day!

Haha...! My title's so corny! But I just find it so funny. Anyway... the holidays are over. The next public holiday will be.. gasp! in August!! That'll be for our National Day... And its ages away! So how was the long weekend people? Let me tell you about mine.

On Friday, there was the Mother's Day gathering for my maternal granny. It was held at her place. Everyone was there.. and you can imagine that there was such a spread! We ate and ate. Following that, we managed to say some prayers for my great-grandma who just passed away last week. We went back to my house after that to celebrate Mother's Day for mom. We got cake and I'd cooked earlier. Mom says that my curry is very good for a first try.. but mom always say such things, so I'm still a bit sceptical. I hope she likes the cake we got her.

The next day, I woke up and made Roti Kirai. That's because I got lotsa leftover curry from day before. Hubby got back from work with the makings of a salad to accompany the meal, which also happens to be one of his favourite! We watched 'In Her Shoes' after that on VCD. Actually, I watched while he slept. So much for spending time with me huh ;P Later that evening, sis and mom came to our house again cos they just realised they forgot to top up on their electricity. And the next day's a Sunday, which means the office is closed and they're unable to top up.

That night was fun. For once, my house which had always been so quiet, was full of laughter. There was noise and I was so glad for the company. The kids made such a din, I didn't know how MIL managed to go to sleep. Raziq's such a terror now. And to think that I used to worry that Naqib will bully him.

On Sunday morning, my mom and I prepared breakfast for everyone together. I missed doing that. We made roti john and serawa durian with glutinous rice. Later, we went to Casueway Point. We bought toiletries and shopped around. Sis bought this Guess bag which is so pretty. I saw one nice bag which I fell in love with at first sight. Same with another wallet. But I know if I get it, hubby will probably scream at me. So I'm now persuading my sis to buy it for me as my birthday present! :)

We had dinner at Vista Point and I had the Tori Katsu Don. There was such a crowd and the kids were starting to get cranky. Naqib also managed to throw up his dinner which was a signal for us to get home. Its been a long day. That night, we cut cake for MIL for her mother's day celebration. That is after hubby finally decided to return home from fishing. I'd bought her a cake too when I bought Mom's cake on Thursday.

I end this post with words of the wise Ustazah, ".. if u buy ur mom a lapis cake, make sure you buy MIL the same cake. Both should be equally important to you and there should be no discrimination.." Haha... welcome back to work everyone!

Yeay! It's here..!!

Yippeeeee!! Hooray!! (claps and jumps up and down).. The long weekend's here again! Its gonna be 3 whole days at home.. i loike! It's also mother's day. We'll be having a celebration tomorrow at nenek's house. Besides that, I've no idea what I will do over the next 3 days. Maybe, I'll just use the 3 days to do housework until I go mad. Or, I'll just blog and surf all 3 days long. Otherwise, I can also enjoy my SIMS 2 for a whole 3 days! Goodness.. it's gonna be 3 whole days of great fun.. aargh... i loike!!! Happy Mum's Day to all!!

Something to think about...

It seems that there's a pattern in the frequency of my blog entries. I only blog during weekends or public holidays. I'm not too busy at work, I'm not too busy at home either. However, the journey to and from work tires me. It is a long journey, one that I'm starting to dread each day. You can do a lot of things in 1hr 15mins.

Anyway, back to the point. I did a lot of things today. Went to the market, bought breakfast for the family. I cooked porridge, sambal ikan bilis and kacang, vege in oyster sauce... I was happy with my self. Encouraged, I went on to wash the clothes and mop the kitchen. However, I was careless of the wet and slippery floor. I slipped and fell. Hurt my bum.. and mostly my pride. Cos mom-in-law was around and she heard all the commotion.

Hubby was on night shift the previous night. Thus he was asleep when it all happened. When he woke up, I told him about my fall. I also told him that in the commotion, I grabbed the shower screen and now its not working as it should. It no longer slides open and close.. in fact it can no longer move.

He didn't say anything. Just asked me how it happened. But where were his words of concern? He did not ask me if I was hurt.. he did not see that I was near to tears and needed TLC. In fact, soon after, he went to check on the shower screen. I told him to. And together, we managed to solve the problem.

But I was still waiting.. And while waiting, I managed to watch tv, have dinner, vacuumed and mopped the whole house. And still it never came. Now he's gone to work, I'm going to bed soon after.. why am I still waiting?

The weekend came and gone...

The long weekend came and went in a flash... That always seems to be the case. So today, we're back at work.. doing mundane things like filing and typing letters and emails. Haiyz...

Last Friday at 5.30pm, while counting down the hours to the long weekend, we had a mini bday celebration for our colleague, who is also my good friend. One of my other colleague had bought the cake. Whilst the rest gathered in the conference room, I switched off the lights and ta-daa... the cake was brought out. The bday gal was all smiles as we all sang her the bday song. Happy Birthday Angeline...!

On Saturday, as promised, I brought my sister's kids to Snow City. It was freezing.. but other than that, we had fun! Despite slipping and falling down a couple of times, both Naqib and Raziq had so much fun that they refused to leave after our 1-hr session was up. They were too busy throwing snow at Nenek, Mama and Mami... Yup.. that's right! We became their target and had to grin and bear their feeble attempts at aiming the snowball at us. However, it was worth suffering. You would think so too if you heard their giggles and laughter that even now, brings a smile to my face. After that, we went to Jurong Point for dinner at Banquet. Following that, headed back to Mom's place to wait for hubby's return from work.

Sunday was a lazy day for me.. spent the whole day at home. The first part of the day was spent with my Sims 2... glad to say that my Sims has just got promoted and is busy getting herself a new partner! Haha.. you wouldn't understand if you're not a Sims player... After that, I switched on the Net. I was so busy surfing, I almost forgot to cook for hubby who was due home in a few hours time. Luckily I made it just an hr before he was due. Otherwise, I would have expected a earful from him.. heheh..!

Monday... we went to JB in the afternoon to top up petrol and get hubby's long overdue haircut. Following that was lunch at our neighbourhood shopping centre. Went home to rest and change before going out again to meet my bestest girlfriends for dinenr at town. Over the coffee cum update session, we chatted on and on till it was time to leave. Jillian, by the time we meet up next, you may already be a married woman! Welcome to the club! Hahaha...

So that's it.. my long weekend which came and is now gone.. can't wait for the next one!

Can't Take That Away By Mariah Carey

They can say, Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down, But I will not allow anyone
To succeed hanging clouds over me,
And they can try hard to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all, But I refuse to falter in
What I believe or Loose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's, there's a light in me,
That shines brightly, They can try,
But they can't take that away from me
From me, No no nooo

Oh they, They can do anything they want to you,
If you let them in, But they won't ever win,
If you cling to your pride and just push them aside,
See I, I have learned, There's an inner peace I own,
Something in my soul that
They can not possess, So I won't be afraid and
The darkness will fade

'Cause there's, There's light in me,
That shines brightly, yes
They can try,
But they can't take
That away from me

No oh oh,
They can't take this Precious love I'll always
Have inside me, Certainly the Lord will
Guide me where I need to go

Woah, woah
They can say, Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down, But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing, Out of their reach,
Although they do try, hard to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all, But I refuse to fall,
Tell me what I believe or
Loose faith in my dreams,
'Cause there's a light in me,
That shines brightly, yes,
They can try but they can't
Take that away from Me
From me, No no no, Me

Many many things...

Helo.. haven't been here for a while. Been busy with bumminess and laziness... Today however, I've got a list! And nothings gonna stop me from blogging my heart out..!

First on my list of things to blog is our family trip to the "Wild Wild Wet" last weekend. There was me, hubby, nadia (my sis), mom and the kids (naqib and raziq). These kids have been bugging me for the longest time - "Bila mummy nak ikut kita pegi WWW? Mummy nie asyik work work work!" heheh.. So you see.. I just had to bring them there. So what did I do? I booked the company's ASA card for that weekend. This card entitles us to 3 free entries. There were so happy and it makes me happy to see the smiles on their faces.

My youngest brother eventually joined us.. He's an independent traveller now.. no longer needs to depend on mom and sis to give him a lift. That's simply bcos he has just passed his Class 2B license and is not the proud owner of his own bike. I must say.. I'm proud of him.

Before I forget, I'd like to say HI!! to Ayu. Found out recently that she has been visiting my site. She is a regular blogger too and if u guys are wondering, we used to be clasmates for all 4 years in secondary school. She came to all my tunang, nikah and wedding.. and she was also there to give me support when my father passed away. Now she is awaiting the delivery of her own child, whom she is refusing to tell at the moment if its a boy or girl, but I wish her the very best all the same. Happy for you Ayu!

I wanna learn too...!

I am currently attending a 3 day course by NTUC to learn Adobe Photoshop. I find that it is getting more and more crucial that I start learning. It can be such a useful tool to use at work, as well as for personal use. I hope to be able to attend the Advanced class sometime this year too.

Actually, the main reason I want to attend this course is because I'm so envious of other bloggers who have knowledge in Photoshop. Their talent enables them to come up with such interesting designs. I'm hoping to be as talented as them in time to come. But of course, this will only happen with constant practice.

So... yeah.. I'll be practicing. Costantly. Will post my progress on my blog too so that y'all can see whether or not I'm progressing. Feel free to drop me any ocmments k...!

Oh ya.. Hubby, pls pls pls be a willing volunteer for my pictures ok. And sis, lemme ur sons to model sometimes k! I won't do anything naughty.. I promise! Heheh... :P

Management Lesson

A funny email I'd like to share with everyone...

Johnny wanted to screw a girl in his office.....but she belonged to someone else...

One day Johnny got so frustrated that he went up to her and said I'll give you a $100 if you let me screw you....but the girl said NO. Johnny said I'll be fast, I'll throw the money on the floor, you bend down, and I'll be finished by the time you pick it up. She thought for a moment and said that she would have to consult her boyfriend.....so she called her boyfriend and told him the story. Her boyfriend says ask him for $200, pick up the money very fast, he won't even be able to get his pants down.

So she agrees and accepts the proposal. Half an hour goes by and the boyfriend is waiting for his girlfriend to call. Finally after 45 mins the boyfriend calls and asks what happened......
She said " He used coins"

Management lesson: Always consider a business proposal in it's entirety before agreeing to it and getting screwed!!
       

I'm back again!

We got back from Samui and Hatyai on Monday morning.

Will be downloading the pics soon.

Watch this space...

As good as it gets

Last weekend wasn't so bad after all!

Saturday was spent mostly at home. Waited ard for our new wrought iron gate, something which I've been wanting since we first got the flat abt a year ago. So happy when it finally got fixed.. silly me couldn't stop admiring my new gates from afar. Heeheee...! Besides that, I lazed around and watched tv, played my Sims 2 on hubby's PS2 for about 4 hrs (was it really for 4 hrs, it felt like just abt an hour or so.. ;p) and went to Vista Point, my neighbourhood shopping centre for some daily necessities. We also picked up the laundry (our touring pants and jacket) and developed some photos for Alex, our friend from Hatyai, Thailand.

And then on Sunday.. it was busy, busy, busy! Hubby came home from night shift abt 8am with breakfast for me! How sweet is that! But that wasn't how i felt at first when he bugged me till I woke up... sleepy and grumpy. He went quickly to sleep after that, leaving me unable to go back to bed. so what did I do..? I went through my recipes and started cooking! Hubby has been asking me to cook his soup thingy with those black fungus and dried beancurd slices... so I did. Teamed up the meal with fried chicken (his all time fav) and steamed cockles (special request from my mom-in-law).

Later, mom came over as her eldest sis is coming over to my humble abode for the very first time. Mom came bearing ingredients to cook mee goreng. And grandma also came bringing fried kway teow and lontong. Besides that, there were the brownies which I made on Sat, and the cheesecake i bought on Friday. You can imagine that there were lotsa of food! Mak Long came with Idah and Ana (her daughters, my cousins) and Alya and Alyssa, Idah's daughters. With Naqib and Raziq (my sis's kids), u can imagine the din that was coming from my house. It was great company!

When it was time for them to go, I packed off most of the food for mom and mee goreng for mak long. So glad when I finally saw my stove empty of the various pots and pans. And by the end of the day, I was just so tired and ready to sleep.

Caught a movie last night at the new Picturehouse at The Cathay. The place has just been re-opened and so far, it looked great. I love the lifts up to the cinema, and the cinema itself still smelt so new.

I've always loved those type of movies - Lord of the Rings, King Arthur, TROY!.. i loike! So when 'Tristan & Isolde' started showing, i knew i'm not gonna give it a miss! The movie's a love story between both of them from two opposing country, the Briton and Irish. Someway, somehow, they fell in love. However they were separated when Isolde had to marry Tristan's king! I hated the betrayal that comes after that, and the ending's not a happy ending.

Haven't been updating these few days. Been busy nursing my pride after my application for sponsorship to continue my studies were rejected. I had been raring to go, and had been telling everyone that we're postponing the baby till after my studies. So now, I'm lost. Should we start to try have babies, or do I try to apply again for my sposorship next year? We're still in a dilemma.

Neway... saw in the papers that many musicals are coming to town. In our sec school days, we've already caught Les Miserable and Phantom of the Opera. I loved it, but never caught another musical until lately. My colleague got a pair of tix to RENT and we caught it. It made me fall in love all over again with the experience. The powerful emotions just get to me, and combined with the song and cast's performance, I can't help wanting to catch another show! Hubby has made it clear he's not interested.. too arty farty for him. And I dunno if I'd bear to spend so much on a 2/3 hour show..

We're riding up again to Koh Samui on the 11th with a few other friends. It's gonna be a loooong ride. But I missed the island and the small Italian cafe which we used to frequent for their fantastic pizza. I'm also dying for a good massage.. they do it so good there! This time, it'll be the peak season due to the full moon party that is supposed to take place around the same time. And after that, its to Hatyai for another 2 days. This visit will be in time for their Songkran or water festival. It'll be fun!

It'll be my late father's birthday this Sunday, 9th April. Its the first birthday since he's been gone. I just hope my mother will be ok. She doesn't say much and keeps it all inside. But I know that she still cries late at night. My plan is to invite some mom, sis and some of my aunts to my house this weekend. Hopefully it'll entertain her and keep her busy. Dunno if it's such a good idea though. One thing for sure, I'll be busy in the kitchen all day long!

Bleary week.

Disappointment.

My hopes are dashed, and I feel lost.

What should I do, where would I go?

My plans have been ruined...