Hari Raya Entry

Didn't realize that I haven't blog in a while. That just shows how busy we have been with preparations for Hari Raya.

This year, even though sepnt a lot of time preparing for Raya, it was celebrated moderately. It's like I looked forward so much for the day to come, only to find that its just like any other day.

I managed to collect my tailored kebaya on Raya eve. Husband recycled his last year's baju. No, we didnt wear matching colours this year. I was clad in orange (his choice) while he was in black. As usual, we went home to mom's place, followed by our respective grannies and a few other aunts' houses. And as usual, there were tears when it came to the part where I asked for forgiveness. Furthermore with the memories of what happened last year, naturally I had already expected the tears.

We ended the day with a few of my relatives coming to my house. By the time they left, it was already 2am. It has been a long long day...

This Saturday will be another long day since we've already invited my colleagues and relatives over. I'm so thankful that mom will be around to help cos I will definitely be overwhelmed with so many guests.

Just received news though that mom got to move out from the flat by the 3rd. What a headache to move during Raya. It's heart-breaking to let go of a house so full of memories. But it's just too much for my mum to handle. Its inevitable that we have to let it go one day. I just didn't expect it to go through so soon. And can you imagine how hard it will be to fit in everything from our jumbo flat to a two or three room flat that they'll be getting? A rented one at that.

Shucks! I'm just so stressed right now. Life seems to suck at this moment. Hopefully my next entry will bring better news.

"Ok friends, lets meet 6.30 SHARP at let's eat lot one..."

That's the message I got out of the blue today from a secondary school friend.

Who? What? When?

Ya, that was my first reaction too.

Turns out that we're meeting for Iftar (break fast) today. Luckily I hadn't had anything planned. So yeap, I'm definitely going. Some of the rest can't make it though.

Oh shucks! And I didn't even have my camera with me! Oh boy... this menas there'll be no photos this time round. :(

Raya's coming!

This Raya is going to be so different. Somehow, I kept thinking of the Raya before last year. In 2004, Dad was sick. But not as sick as the last year. So were still able to go out and celebrate. At that time, I was still staying with mom and dad. It was the most fulfilling Raya ever. There were also many visitors. Me, mom and sis were so enthusiastic about the preparations.

Then last year, we celebrated Raya at Tan Tock Seng. We brought in a radio for dad into his room so that he could hear the takbir raya. I didn't know if he understood what was going on then. His diabetic condition was so bad then, that he seems so far away at times. all we could do was to hold his hand.

I remember that all of us came to the hospital on the first day of Raya. It was my first Raya in my bew home, but I felt like I was barely there. Everything happened like a dream. My memories of that Raya was just a blur.

It was still Raya when Dad passed away. Although we were shocked, it was somewhat a relief too for he is no longer in pain. He used to cringe a lot when he was in ICU. Like it was too much pain to bear.

No wonder mom seems to dread this coming Raya. Actually I am too. But I'm trying my damndest not to. It's not fair to hubby, and I want Mom to have a good time.

It also felt a lot like my first Raya. In my pre-occupied state last year, a lot of things were done in a minimalist way. I hope I can make up for it this Raya.

Dad, you're in my prayers everyday. I miss u.

Today my mind is not at ease. Keep thinking about her and the life-changing decision which she has just made. I understand her rationale and know that it really is for the 'greater good'. But.... how do you know when enough is enough? That the decision you made is really for the best?

I worry for them. What will the future have for them?

Be strong gal! There's really nothing else to do but to be strong and have faith in HIM. God bless.

It seems like ages since I was here! Seems like my blog turut berpuasa in this holy month of Ramadan... kekeke!

Anyway, I've been occupied lah. Last Thursday, we went to meet up with hubby's secondary school mates. It was so much fun! It made me think of my own secondary school mates and how we've drifted apart over the years. Anyway, for pics, click HERE okie!

dun ask me what i did on Friday cos... GASP!! I can't remember. Talk about short term memory huh!

Sat, met up with Jillian and Hubby. Broke my fast at Newton hawker centre witht he usual spread of ikan pari bakar, sotong sambal, omelette with shrimp and tom yam! Hmmm.... so sedap! After that, we brought them to Geylang to get my 'Blinky' lights! It was super crowded! We walked and walked... and hubby even participated in this carpet auction! But luck was not with I as others managed to outbid us.

I was ready to go home after Geylang but hubby and Lester has other plans. Off we went to Parklane for billiard. While they play, Jillian and I were busy chatting at the side. The game ended only at 1.30am! And I was super duper tired and yawning all the way! But it was a good day and we enjoyed ourselves very much.

Sunday, as usual was reserved for housework. Nothing much there.

Yesterday though, we went back to Geylang with mom and bro. Berbuka puasa at Hawa Rest at Onan Road and had my hor fun and hubby's chicken rice. Walked around after that and bought my senduks (ladle) for Raya. We bought 10! LOL!! So funny!

So today, its back at work. So sorry that this entry is super dry without the usual sprinkle of photos okie! Didn't bring my camera and hard drive to work lah. Btw, what's up with me and the use of the word 'super'... god knows why! HAHA!!

Anyway.. Raya is coming!! Bestlar! Nie next week nak pegi pasar, buat kuih, tukar langsir.. and etc. So best!! Excuse me while I go check my list.. *byebye!

My baby number 1 turns 5 today!

Happy birthday sayang. You will always hold a special place in my heart.