Sunday, June 27, 2010

Jun 2010

I am such a lousy blogger!! Not that I've got nothing to write, bt just that I'm too LAZY to write!!

This will be my last twenty-something birthday. Yet, ask me what I have achieved in all of my 29 years, and my answer would probably be a shrug.

Yes I'm a mom of two, but I don't feel I'm a good mom. Haryz turns 3 this July and I have yet to wean him off from my breast and he is no where close to being potty trained. He's not been enrolled in a school and I suck at disciplining him.

At 8 months, Khairul alrd knows that I am someone he can bully. I feed him to sleep although this is the very thing every books on parenting tell u to not do. And dun even ask me when I will move my kids out of the king size bed which all 4 of us are currently sharing.

As a wife, I admit that I wish can be better. I am too busy with work and kids that I can see hubby feeling abandoned. But I seriously don't know hw to cope when 24 hours is all I have in a day!

And as a daughter, I wish I can provide more for my mom, who never ever asked for more. She who is satisfied with all that God gives her and takes on all our nonsense... I really hope I could have done more.

I'm getting depressed... I'm stopping here for now.

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