My first trimester

*blow off dusts and cobwebs*

It feels like years since I've been here. Hee hee..

Life has just been different ever since we found out about my pregnancy. Its a time for discovery for hubby and me. We're just in awe at the moment, that somewhere inside of me, is our little baby. Truly and wonderfully ours. How can anything else beat that?

It started out with the bouts of sickness that never seems to go away. I think hubby kinda felt sick of hearing me complain about how sick and tired I felt all the time. Mom even went to the extent to pulling me one corner and advicing me, "Sometimes, we should not complain about our sickness to the husband to much, in case he gets sick of hearing and decides to stay away."

But who cares? I believe that a husband and wife goes through everything together. In sickness and in health, so he was with me every step of the way. *I love you hubby!*

First was the windy/gassy stomach feeling that I thought I was having. I was pale and hurting, making everyone worried. We went to the clinic and MIL even had someone over to give me a massage to get rid of the 'wind'.

Then came the diarhoea towards the end of November. I remember waking up in the middle of the night. Rushing to the toilet and pulling the pail in front of me while I sat at the toilet bowl. I think I let out everything that was inside of me that night. We went to the clinic the next day but suspecting nothing, went away with the ususal medications for diarhoea.

However, the vomitting part never really left me. And I got sick daily. He got used to hearing me tell him, while walking to our flat, to quickly open the door cause I'm at the verge of vomitting. I also kept taking the anti-nausea pill that the the doctor gave me cause it got so bad that taking the motorbike got me nauseous.

The increase in appetite and the bouts of sickness made me suspect that something may be happening, so I told hubby that I'd like to do a test. We were both excited and worried cos it wasn't something that we had planned for. It tested positive.

I went to KL that weekend. The bus ride was a nightmare cos I kept having to control myself. I also stayed indoors most of the time cos I was too tired to walk around. Hubby had never been nicer to me. He carried my bags, made sure I ate enough and was always considerate in asking if I needed sweets and etc.

We went to the clinic as soon as we got back and got the confirmation from the doctor. Hubby was overjoyed! He started SMS-ing everyone although I told him not too. He called both our moms and told them the good news. It was a side of him that I've never seen before!

I don't know if it was me, but my cravings just went out full-force after that. Every night, I had a craving to have one dish or another for dinner. I stayed away from chocolates even though it was my favourite. I hated my brand new handphone and could not stand the smell of perfumes. Poor hubby had to put up with all my antics.

That NY was the first time we celebrated at home. I just didn't think I could handle the crowds that year. We watched the celebrations on TV over the chips and snacks that we had bought earlier, and went to sleep after the show was over. Hurhur, what a bunch of fun loving people!

Nowadays, although I still have cravings and go through days of nausea, it wasn't as bad as before. Life has started to settle down and we are getting used to the idea of having a baby. I'm now in my 12th weeks and will be going for my 2nd gynae visit in the week after next. In the mean time, I find myself staring at babies and imagining what life will be like for me when the time comes. I wish he was here to share this moment with us...