Hari Raya is coming!!

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well, well.. whadya know? Its back to work for me. Last week was a crazy week! And today, my temp girl has left, leaving me with even more work to handle alone!!

 

At work, its busy with work, pump, work, pump and more work. After work, its making the mad dash home and If I'm lucky, I get to play with Haryz. Otherwise, I make my way home from Mom's place with a sleeping baby. This if followed by a warm bath for both of us, feeding and putting him to sleep. Then sterilizing his bottles, packing the things for the next day, an hour or less of TV and I hit the sack. It’s a long day..

 

btw.. I have yet to upload Haryz's 9th week baby photo to my multiply! And its his 10th week tomorrow already!!

 

Hari Raya preparations for this year is so minimal, and that bugs the hell out of me! Besides new clothes for us, we didn’t buy anything! No curtains, no lacy tablecloths, no new furniture, nothing! Everything is recycled from previous years. And whatever is new is bought by MIL. It takes all the fun out of it! Dahlah tak semangat cos tak buat kuih and tak masak.. nasib baik ada baju baru. Kalau tak, kita tak beraya lah tahun nie!

 

Over the weekend, we stayed home on Saturday. Did a bit of spring cleaning at home and put up the curtains. Berseri sikit rumah kiter.. kekeke!! On Sunday, brought baby to Causeway Point with MIL and family. Kelakar tengok my MIL layan cucu sulong dier! She bought him baju raya handpicked by me.. of cos, smue cute cute belaka! Can't wait for him to put on his first jeans!

 

Its back to work today, but my mind is already busy thinking of the coming raya. Nak kemas bilik, nak gosok baju, nak siapkan sampul duit, nak beli baju hubby, and the list goes on… Hee! Tak sabar nye nak beraya!!

 

Running out of time...!!

I've decided to change my blogger layout... back to where I started. This was similar to what my blog looked like when I first started blogging. My 'Bride' layout was too much out of context with me being a mum now. And sad to say.. I'm still not too much familiar with HTML codes and what-nots to create a new layout from scratch. The layouts available at blogskins.com where not suitable with what I had in mind. So here I am again until I manage to create another skin.

Anyway.. I feel like I'm running out of time! Its 10pm.. and in just a few hours time, I will have to wake up and prepare myself to work. Send my son (that still sounds weird to me!) to my mom's and then make the arduous journey to City Hall for the long day at work. It feels like I'm stepping into a nightmare, however absurd that may sound.

Haryz is sleeping now.. hubby is in the shower and I am blogging away what seems like the last moments of my life. Haryz's bags are packed for tomorrow.. but I am still undecided on what bag to bring, what to wear and OMG.. I'm so not prepared for work!!

This blog is so BORING!

Eww man.. this blog is so damn boring! I've been updating my multiply, but fails to update this blogger blog of mine. So yeah.. call me goblok (haha.. just can't resist, blogger, blog, goblok!!)!

Anyway.. pls click HERE for updates on my life.

Well.. the news is, I have given birth to Haryz Aiman on 31st Jul 2007. After 2 months of maternity leave, I'll be going back to work this coming Monday, 1st Oct 2007.

This Ramadan has been so different with Haryz in my life. With him being so young, it leaves me no time to make much preparations. So this year, no baking of cookies.. no cooking of Hari Raya dishes.. no shopping for curtains and what nots.. However, what there will be is Hari Raya with my darling baby.. his first baju kurung.. our family decked in orange... my shorter hair (as compared to previous years... and erm.. can't think of anything else at the moment!

Ok.. Whatever I want to say have been mentioned in my multiply already. What I can do though, is to leave you with some recent photos of Haryz.

Ok.. ok.. I also promise to blog here whenever I write an entry in my multiply ok! I frankly dunno how other people managed to keep 2 accounts or more! G'nite!

My Birthday and The Final Month

My birthday this year went by without much fanfare. We booked a chalet at Downtown East for 3 days 2 nights for the weekend. Basically, just a short getaway cum gathering for the families.

We had bbq-ed food for 2 nights in a row, and I was most satisfied that I finally got to eat my bbq-ed jagung (corn)! It was also relaxing cos I didn't have to do much except laze around and eat. haha! It was nice. The kids had fun when we brought them to Explorerkids and Wild Wild Wet. And when they're happy, I'm happy too. I felt very much at bliss... the family was having fun, hubby was nice and helpful, no stress from work, it was all a girl could ask for!

Although we didn't take much photos, Darn..!! I just realised that my camera's at home. I won't be able to upload photos after all. Heehee... Dunno why, but taking photos are becoming such a chore to me. I hate having my photos taken, and its taken a turn for the worse eversince I got pregnant. So, the photos gotta wait k. Will try to do it over the weekends, if I got time in between laundry and packing my baby's things.

I am officially in my 37th week now. That is, I've been pregnant for 36 weeks and 1 day according to my doctor's calculations. Other than the terrible heat and my aching back which often causes difficulty in getting up, walking and etc.. I dun have much complaints. The baby's kicks are getting stronger each day, letting me know without fail just how excited he is to seeing the world.

I'm seeing the doctor again tomorrow. Finally, my visits have been increased to 2-3 weeks gaps instead of the usual 4 weeks. I'm a bit concerned cos the doctor has been warning me since the last 2-3 visits now that the baby is growing too fast and may be too big for a natural delivery. Aaarggh! Its giving me such a pressure. I want to eat well for my baby to get his nutrients, but yet I must cut down so that it'll be easier for me during childbirth. Having a big sized baby increases the chances of C-sect. My mom herself has been through 3 caesarian births, but of course, which woman doesn't hope to do it naturally and less pain please! Hubby keeps telling me to have faith in God, as he'll only want the best for us. But that can't stop me from worrying, see?

On the other hand, we have been doing some shopping over the last month and bought all the baby clothes and bottles and what-nots. I've yet to get the big items though. Will depend on its necessity when the time actually comes. Nowadays, I have been chasing hubby to get those plastic drawers so that I can finally pack the baby's stuff in. For now, the items are all lying around our room in their plastic bags still. I must also really get down to packing my hospital bag in case The Day comes earlier than expected =)

Nowadays, there so many things to do and not to do! Grandma got me air zam-zam to drink and MIL got me another dunno-wat drink to make birth easier. Hubby has been encouraging me to take coconut drinks as per advice from friends and relatives. Then there's also the tradition of drinking hot milo + 2 eggs the moment I feel that I'm in labour (for strength). MIL has been reminding me to wear bedroom slippers at home to keep myself warm. She doesn't know I need the fan blasting at me before I can sleep at night, heehee!!

Then, there's the constant worry about work. To train my temp staff to take over me. To clear up my desk with items I wanna bring homw. To bring home the MacLaren pram that my boss gave me (its been under my desk for 3 months now!). To settle my leave and paperwork stuff with HR before I go... and all this with the worry that I may give birth anytime soon!

And aside from all this, I am forever asking myself, have I got all the necessities? Have I got everything covered? Did I buy this, and do I need to buy this? There's so much things on my mind! Dun be surprised if I ever walk past any of you and not see or recognize u straight away.

Wow.. ok! This blog has been long enough. God knows when I'll blog again. Probably by then, I would have been a certified mom and will have another set of worries altogether. But until the time comes, do me a favour will ya? Pray for me. Cos I'm scared stiff of wats going to happen...

Phuket and my 3rd trimester

Hiya all!

I better update today.. people have been complaining about me not updating. But photos still gotta wait ok! I've no patience for that as yet.

The trip to Phuket was uneventful. It was fun and restful. I got to shop and fulfil my cravings for Green Thai Curry. However, the trip wasnt as fun as previous holidays as I wasn't able to (likely also that I didnt have the mood to) join in the fun and activities.

The group went on an ATV and Go-Cart ride.. but I had to skip that cos hubby was worried that it may be too rough for me. We went to the beach but I was only able to watch cos of my sensitive skin (always tend to get rashes whenever I swim, so I swore off the sea or the pool). They went partying but I left halfway cos I was worried the loud music is not good for the baby. And for Songkran, they played with water, but I didnt cos I was worried that I might fall while running around.

But it gave me time to enjoy the aircon in the room, watch Star Movies and HBO... went shopping for souvenirs.. ate thai food, pizza and subway... Gave me time to spend with hubby in a relaxed environment. Oklah.. I definitely want to go again some other time.

Today is the day I officially step into the 3rd and last trimester. Only 12 more weeks to go before I become a mother! The second trimester wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. The back ache, the heat, the aches and pains I go through walking, sleeping and basically doing anything whatsoever can be taxing on me. Many a times I spend the night staring at the clock, willing it to go faster so that morning will come. In the morning, I am always tired and zombie-like.... debating with myself whether or not to go to work.

And the thing is, people tell me the worst is yet to come! My goodness! God, please give me strength to go through all this.

Hubby has been great. Frankly, I dunno if I could go through all this without his support. I can't say that he has been helpful with the housework, or is diligently massaging my back daily to ease my pain. But what he has done is to give me more space on the bed to make me comfortable. Taking me all around Singapore at the slightest sign or mention of a craving. He's been more patient with me, giving in to me when I least expect it.. and is very diligent in accompanying me for all my check ups and what nots.

Late at night when I'm asleep, he touches my tummy, hoping for any movement from the babe. And I can hear his chukles when the baby finally decides to acknowledge with a kick. It touches my heart.. so much!

So this trimester is going to be busy. We have to start buying the necessities, and we also have to do some major shifting to make way for the baby. This couple of months, hubby and I will also be attending some union functions that will take away some weekends. Then there's the various family and friends activities like birthdays and chalets, baby's full month party for a friend... whoa, I hope I have the strength for all this.

Ok. Enough about me already. Just wanna tell you guys that Spiderman 3 is out! Go catch it soon! I know I have.. keekee!

Going to Phuket!!

Whahaha *insert evil laugh here*

Heehee.. wondering why I'm so happy? Well, I am going to Phuket!! Whahaha... i just can't stand it! I'm just so happy with this news that I practically eat, sleep and breathe hugging this piece of fantastic news to myself!

Ok.. let me slow down and tell you the whole story.

Long before I was pregnant, there were plans for us to go Phuket for a holiday. Again, its a riding trip, and although it started small, it ended up getting a good response. It wasnt long before we (or hubby rather) managed to gather about 20 enthusiasts!

Later on, we found out I was pregnant! There goes my hope and although I was very unhappy, I decided to let it go for the baby's sake.

The rooms were subsequently booked and I could only look on in envy. What's more distressing is that hubby was gonna be away for 8 long days while I could just mope around at home.

Sometime over the last two weeks, one of the participants decided to back out in the lst minute, And the participant is supposed to have been my hubby;s roomate in Phuket. Later that same week, we also had a visit to the gynae. Let me quote what he told us.. "Ok nw is the honeymoon period. Your pregnancy's stable and you've come to the stage where there is minimal chances for complications. So you can even go for a second honeymoon if you want.."

Need we say more? Hubby and I looked at each other, both of us thinking, "Is this a sign??"

Hahaa!! Without giving me a chance, hubby quickly asked the doctor for a letter to book the flight tickets!!

So there it is.. two days later, my flight tickets are booked. And I am going to be on my way to Phuket in less than a week's time!!

So this Good Friday, I am going to be busy packing our bags. Hubby's gonan begin his 8-12 hr ride to Hatyai on Sunday night. Resting there for one night before continuing his journey on Tuesday morning to Phuket! I will see you there hubby sayang!!

So gals .. I will tell you the story on the trip when I return next weekend ok! Excuse me while I continue my day-dreaming... Oops! In office  now, got to go back to work! Heehee!!

Hihi..

Hubby has gone Shanghai for his union trip since Sat morning, and it these 4 days has been LOOONG..... and not to mention so lonely. Its been a year or so since we were last separated for more than a day. The last time was when he had to go back to Malaysia for further treatment for his broken arm, whereas I had to return back to work.

But.. he's coming back today! I am definitely rushing home after work tonight. Gonna whip up a meal (poor hubby has ulcers and running nose due to the cold weather there). Something soupy, hot and healthy! Gonna bathe and welcoem him with arms wide open once I hear his footsteps outside the door (I am sounding so Hindustan movie like.. hahah!!)

I was telling a friend the other day that I am so lucky that hubby works shift. So I can simply pretend these past few nights that hubby is doing night shift. I can only imagine the loneliness if it were otherwise. Yesterday though.. I was close to tears when the the whole day passed without nary a phonecall or sms from hubby. Worried? Yes! Lonesome? Yes! In need of tender loving care? Yes, yes, yes!!!

But just as I was falling asleep the anonymous number of an overseas call flashed on my mobile. Yeay! The call!! You see.. that's how dependent I am on him. Days can pass without seeing hubby dearie (well not really.. it really is on the edge of unbearable) but a day without talking to him and I wilt like a flower that has not seen the sun.

This weekend, hubby again got to go for an overnight 'camp'. That leaves my weekend empty with no plans. Luckily I have the kids, my beloved nephews, who never fails to cheer me up.

But then again, hubby is leading a riding group up to Phuket for 8 very long (longer than forever) days! I was supposed to join him for this trip. We were partners in crime.. exploring the best bargains, the beautiful beach and long ride home during our trips to Koh Samui. And yet, for this first trip to Phuket, I am unable to go...!! Too bad that plans has been made, tickets bought and hotels booked. He's also leading another 15 or so motorcycles, so he cannot don't go.  So that leaves me at home again, pining for my other half. Haiyz.. the injustice of it all!

Well, lets not think of all that for now. I should instead look forward to his return today. For again, I will be able to sleep peacefully with him by my side. And gain, I can let my frustrations out to someone who understands that my nagging is a way for me to vent. i have my hubby with me for tonight. And for now, that is all I ask.

Pregnant at 4 months

Horrors!

I found out to my dismay last week that I can't fit into most of my pants. There's also a few shirts that I can no longer wear. Haiyz.. I can practically see my money fly away at the the moment. Thank God I have alwyas preferred loose clothings. And being big, I also tend to show lesser than all those skinny mommies.

Jillian dragged me to Suntec last Thursday. Finally gave in and bought myself two blouses and a skirt. Goodness, I didn't know maternity wear could cost so much! I'd so much rather spend my money on buying those cute stuff they have for newborns. But yes, it's still way too early. Just the 3 pieces of clothing itself set me back close to $170!!

Work has been unbearable. At this moment, i dread coming to work daily only to see the piles of papers on my table. If previously, I get satisfaction from clearing those, nowadays, I feel that I'm only doing it because I have to. I can only imagine the heavy feeling I'll get coming back to work after my maternity leave.

Thse days, the only days I look forward to are my dates with Dr. Ang. The days I can see my baby and hear its heartbeat beating so fast. It's as though he/she is also nervous at meeting me and counting down the days impatiently. Patience my little one, we still have so many months to go - 5 to be exact. I've not had enough of being pregnant. I'm still waiting for your kicks and the experience of bringing u into my world.

My tummy has started to show. To me at least. Its also funny that I realise now the presence of so many pregnant woman around me. Never could I step up of the house without seeing another pregnant woman on the streets. Even hubby has taken on a new favourtite sentence, "Eh, pregnant woman lagik!". Heehee..!

Basically, we've already planned to sign up for a package with this gynae from Thomson Medical. Conseidering taking up pre-natal massage to help me with my forever aching back. Heard from a friend that they have packages for that too. Maybe after the 7th month, I will start preparing my baby's room and etc. Still so much things for me to learn. Haven't had the time to visit the library to get reference books. So far I've only been reading up online. Those forums can be of so much help!

Ok.. that's all for today. I'll try posting a pic of myself at 4 months pregnant. But don't look out for it.. heehee. Haven't been downloading photos on for the longest time. Don't know when I will ever feel up to it. Sorry ppl!

My first trimester

*blow off dusts and cobwebs*

It feels like years since I've been here. Hee hee..

Life has just been different ever since we found out about my pregnancy. Its a time for discovery for hubby and me. We're just in awe at the moment, that somewhere inside of me, is our little baby. Truly and wonderfully ours. How can anything else beat that?

It started out with the bouts of sickness that never seems to go away. I think hubby kinda felt sick of hearing me complain about how sick and tired I felt all the time. Mom even went to the extent to pulling me one corner and advicing me, "Sometimes, we should not complain about our sickness to the husband to much, in case he gets sick of hearing and decides to stay away."

But who cares? I believe that a husband and wife goes through everything together. In sickness and in health, so he was with me every step of the way. *I love you hubby!*

First was the windy/gassy stomach feeling that I thought I was having. I was pale and hurting, making everyone worried. We went to the clinic and MIL even had someone over to give me a massage to get rid of the 'wind'.

Then came the diarhoea towards the end of November. I remember waking up in the middle of the night. Rushing to the toilet and pulling the pail in front of me while I sat at the toilet bowl. I think I let out everything that was inside of me that night. We went to the clinic the next day but suspecting nothing, went away with the ususal medications for diarhoea.

However, the vomitting part never really left me. And I got sick daily. He got used to hearing me tell him, while walking to our flat, to quickly open the door cause I'm at the verge of vomitting. I also kept taking the anti-nausea pill that the the doctor gave me cause it got so bad that taking the motorbike got me nauseous.

The increase in appetite and the bouts of sickness made me suspect that something may be happening, so I told hubby that I'd like to do a test. We were both excited and worried cos it wasn't something that we had planned for. It tested positive.

I went to KL that weekend. The bus ride was a nightmare cos I kept having to control myself. I also stayed indoors most of the time cos I was too tired to walk around. Hubby had never been nicer to me. He carried my bags, made sure I ate enough and was always considerate in asking if I needed sweets and etc.

We went to the clinic as soon as we got back and got the confirmation from the doctor. Hubby was overjoyed! He started SMS-ing everyone although I told him not too. He called both our moms and told them the good news. It was a side of him that I've never seen before!

I don't know if it was me, but my cravings just went out full-force after that. Every night, I had a craving to have one dish or another for dinner. I stayed away from chocolates even though it was my favourite. I hated my brand new handphone and could not stand the smell of perfumes. Poor hubby had to put up with all my antics.

That NY was the first time we celebrated at home. I just didn't think I could handle the crowds that year. We watched the celebrations on TV over the chips and snacks that we had bought earlier, and went to sleep after the show was over. Hurhur, what a bunch of fun loving people!

Nowadays, although I still have cravings and go through days of nausea, it wasn't as bad as before. Life has started to settle down and we are getting used to the idea of having a baby. I'm now in my 12th weeks and will be going for my 2nd gynae visit in the week after next. In the mean time, I find myself staring at babies and imagining what life will be like for me when the time comes. I wish he was here to share this moment with us...