Thursday, May 13, 2010

Today - 13 May 2010

We said goodbye today. It was painful. I am sure the scar that's left behind will be with me for sometime.

It was sad too that I was the last person to see u before the door which separates u to us was shut. That I had to be the bearer of bad news to all that matters. What will our lives be like tomorrow?

He stayed today... Bringing Naqib out for kite when the kiddo wouldn't stop crying. Then later to timezone to distract them.

And Fiqri had difficulty sleeping. Such that Mak gave him ur shirt from this morning to sleep. It worked for a while.

Seeing all this, I wondered about you. The memory of you breaking when you held Fiqri will be in my mind forever. Be strong love. We will all pray for you.

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Saturday, March 27, 2010

Rants

Tired. Exhausted. Angry. Unhappy. Feeling crappy.

Indeed, money is the root of all evil.


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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

My Boys

Once again, I can believe hw fast the time has passed. It's back to work again after 6 mths away.

Why does it still feels like a joke when i realize that I am now a mother of two? I still am not smart enough to answer the queries that will come from my boys, barely have enough patience to entertain the screams of a baby, and still squemish about poo and all yucky stuff. But here I am... Been there, done that, and doing it yet again (and again? And again? Lol!!) What is it about motherhood? The worries it brings you... If u're teaching them right? If you're feeding them right? If you're treating them right?

I'm addicted to my boys! They drive me to tears at times with their screams and demands, but leave them for half a day and I get lovesick.




Haryz, my love, is now 30 mths old. Soooo cute and mischievous! He is learning to talk and have started to form sentences in his daily converations. But, gosh, the things he says at time can make me tear with laughter!

Me: Haryz, tomorrow mummy work k. You must be a good boy and look after ur brother k?

Him: Ok

Me: You want me to bring home anything for you?

Him: Ah yes! Mi, Am, Air... Pos! (translate: mee, ayam and air. Mampos!)

Me: (in btw laughter, tries to be serious and tries to chide him, while realizing he had learnt this word from me!) Haryz cnt say that ok... No good!

Him: Pos! (complete with slapping head motion)

Mampos! Cute kan??!!

Being full of mischief means he often gets a smack on his bottom. For eg, it was my first day at work and I reached home tired and cranky due to a swollen breast. Mak was only cooking dinner. While watching me pump, Haryz was happily pouring water on my bedroom floor! Needless to say, he got a earful from me, complete with a flick on his ear. Now, screams and tears I can tahan. But definitely not the 'I'm so hurt u would do that to me' kinda look. It made me question myself if it was necessary to hit him at all. Haiyz... Parenting is no easy task man!



Khairul, my precious, is 4 month old! Boy he's one garang baby! Sleepy? Scream! Hungry? Scream! Scared? Scream! Btw me and Mak, we constantly have to take turns with him cos he needs to be entertained at all times!! But when he smiles.... I cam literally feel all my troubles fading away! I can feel all the knots in me untying and I'm melting away... Told my MIL that he will be the ultimate bad boy in school whom all the girls have a crush on. Heehee!! He's getting smarter now and has started to show a preference to BM instead of formula. His eyes follow me around the house as though saying 'play with me! Sit with me!' He likes to stand and screams whenever we try to put him in his rocker. He's got good head control as he's been lifting his head since birth and is now trying to flip. He's also shown interest in food and will look at us intently when we eat. I am still resisting it though, at least until we have the doctor's advice this Friday.

My dear readers, do u know that due to work and family commitments, this blog took me a whole 2 weeks to complete??!! But have to end here now cos my love's having fever and needs my TLC. Bubye!!!